Who am I?

Some of you may have noticed I’ve been a bit sporadic in my posting as of late.

I’d like to think it was all due to a certain little project (I’ll talk about later) I’ve been busy with. But truth be told, I could be posting regularly if I really wanted too. And that got me to wondering why it is that I’m not all gung ho about posting anymore.

And I think it’s because I’m confused about whether or not I like my own blog.

You see, I don’t have a focus for this blog. And I can’t decide if that is good or bad. Nearly all the bloggers I read have some trademark to their writing. Some are always funny, some are always thoughtful, some are always spiritual. And then there is me. My writing sways with my mood for the moment. I never know what I’m going to write. Lately I’ve been intense and dramatic. Before that I was finding the humor in life with children. There is no consistency in my writing styles or what I write about.

And I’ve realized that this is not just something I’m unsure about in blogging/writing. I’m unsure about it as a whole. I mean, really, who am I?

Am I the pensive, brooding woman I sense here? Am I the emotional and cautiously hopeful woman I sense here? Am I the thankful, contented woman I sense here?

How can I really know who I am when my mind is constantly shifting emotions? I’m annoyed with not being able to be the same person all the time.

There seem to be so many different versions of “me”.

January 17, 2008 | Filed Under Mental Health, Random | 29 Comments