A little blue
I think my, uninspired post, stemmed from my feelings of disouragement. I’ve had a lot of those lately. It happens to me every spring. It probably doesn’t sound typical to feel blue in spring time but I have my reasons. 
You see, we’ve been living in the same area, in the same apartment for nearly seven years. For seven years we’ve seen lots of people move in and move out of our church. People who were students like us but who finished and have now moved on to jobs and the ability to pay back student loans, while we? Have not.
It’s silly and it’s petty but I get depressed and jealous when another spring comes around and I see moving trucks wherever I drive and hear of friends’ leases coming to an end, not to be renewed. We never anticipated being here so long. I try not to show my discouragement to my husband, because he is even more discouraged than I am. I don’t want to add to his stress at school and his wondering if he’ll ever have research succesful enough to guarantee him his doctorate. I had no idea the amount of, frankly, dumb luck that comes into play with getting a doctorate in biology. He’s had plenty of good ideas but none of them have panned out. Quite a few of them, in part, have failed due to a prior lab workers faulty research (grrrr).
I wouldn’t have you think I have been discontented this entire time though. It’s true that for the first few years I was just getting by, living each day dreaming of the future. But once I realized I wasn’t very happy living life in a rush just to get out of a stage, I started to enjoy it. There are a lot of great things about Maryland and we’ve been privileged to meet a lot of good people that have passed through. As always the feeling will pass, and perhaps next year it will finally be us moving on with our lives.
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Sorry to hear about the blues. Not sure if it will help, but I am having a little giveaway over at my place. Check it out, maybe it will cheer you up?!
Hope things work out soon for your hubby. I can only imagine how difficult that must be. I know my mom-in-law had to go through similar things when my dad-in-law was getting his doctorate.
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You are a brave soul!!! :) I know it’s hard work when it comes to wishing and waiting and hoping, but I think it’s great that you are trying hard to be positive about it. I’m sue your husband appreciates you very much… and I hope you balance each other sooo the discouragement doesn’t get the best of you. I’m happy to be in touch with you again. You’ve always been sooo sweet. You’re a great example of hard work and caring! I have good memories of working with you at good old McD’s! ;) I love your blogs and I can tell that you are a very thoughtful wife and mother!!! Blue happens to be my favorite color… but in this case… here’s wishing you some other colors! Happy Spring!
Summer, you’re wonderful. I’m so proud of the good wife and mother you are. And I’m so happy you married such a wonderful man. I admire how you’ve worked so hard to find joy in the ‘here and now’. Keep it up. Be happy my summeresque. Love you. Mom
I don’t know about that “able to pay back student loans” part. FWIW, we miss you guys and Baltimore in general, especially this time of year. The dogwoods blooming, the tulips at Sherwood Gardens, the daffodils coming up in random places. The allergies :)
I have had similar experiences and times in my life where I feel like my life is stuck in a place that I want to move forward from, but can’t. It has helped me in these times to remind myself that there is a time for everything. I think that is such a great attitude that you are taking, that you are trying to enjoy the different stages in your life instead of trying to rush through them.
Oh, and one more thing, I really like your new banner - it’s very antique and pretty looking!
Summer, I can imagine how you feel, but I must tell you how grateful I am that you are here. You were such a huge blessing to me when we moved in. You were an answer to my prayers. I am glad you are here!
I didn’t know that your husband is getting his doctorate. That’s awesome (it’s one of my goals too…).
I wish him much success.
Who knows…maybe you’ll be the ones with the moving truck next spring? :)
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My heart aches for you … it has been there and kind of still is right now. Hopefully both of us will get to move sometime in the near future :) !!
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